Some Days Are Too F-ing Quiet

I do admit that there are days that I can be pretty mean. I'm short-tempered, I'm nasty, and I just will not take anyone's bullshit. However, there is no question that if I love you, I will always love you. There are times that I really might not like you and you will know it, but I will always love you. Is there anyone who can explain to me how someone can share his life with a woman for many years, promise to love her forever, have children with her, build a home with her, and then treat her like she is a piece of garbage? I used to think that it was the power of the pussy that could make a man do things that he might have thought he would never do, but if this was true, then where is the power in the woman that he first loved? Is it gone? I don't know. You don't have to be in love with someone for the rest of your life. Sometimes things change; things happen. But you don't have to hate or be cruel to someone who you once professed to love forever. Here's a good idea- try being friends. It's good for both of you and it's good for the kids. When one is trying really hard to be the bigger person and someone else just beats them down, it gets tiring. Sometimes I want to scream. Sometimes I want to hit. But I always end up crying. I believe in karma so much; so much so that when I see someone being so cruel, I almost feel sorry for them because it's going to come back around. Many people think that might make me weak, but I can't help feeling sorry for someone whom I cared for so much just completely screw up their life. To this person, and you know who you are, I do not love you and I do not care for you and I guess I never did because as much as I tried to, you have always been a completely unloveable person. You should know that I do not hate you, mainly because I will not waste that kind of energy on you. The opposite of love is not hate, it is indifference. Loving humanity is what I live for. Everyone is equal and everyone should love one another. That should include you. You are no longer human. You are an inhuman piece of shit. Please move on and don't drag anymore of my loved ones down with you. Just disappear and leave us in peace.